Ooooo, you can ask stuff on this site. Hm. SO...original, eh? Yeah well, I love you. :] take a small guess at what queer is writing this to you xP it starts with J and end with Ohn xD I love you <3
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It would have been so much better if you left yourself Anonymous…or if I was too stupid to figure out who it was xD
Yeah way, & today, is theeee one year anniversary with my boyfriend, John. I’ve had one year before, nbd honestly. But… They’ve never meant thiiiis much to me. Just the thought of spending this much time, with a human being as amazing, fun loving, funny, adorable, super sweet & passionate, & accepting as him…hell, that just sets off fireworks in my chest ha butterflies bat around in my rib cage at just the idea. It’s scary to think that this, being a teen love, probably won’t last … but why would I think about that when my current state is utter unadulterated happiness? Why would anyone even think of what could be, when what’s happening is so genuine & real? I am going to bask in this love for as long as I can, because even if it is my first, I sure as hell want it to last.
I’ve never let myself get to this point. I always sort of laughed at those doting couples that bat their eye lashes lovingly at one another in during a sappy little eskimo kiss … but now that I am one part of those lovesick couples, I know I wouldn’t trade it for anything. This concoction of feelings, this solid relationship I’ve built with him means more to me than most things … which is another big turn for me. I’ve never placed relationships above much of anything at all. They were usually the least of my concerns, for my mentality was rooted in the fact that they come & go. Until this adorably shy guy passed a note to me in Science class & that was all it took. I gradually just kind of grew out of my usual behavior & fell madly in love with him. He drew me out of that controlling outlook. He brought out the better of me, the compassionate person I could always be, but chose not to. He makes me feel alive, he brings out who I really am & absolutely adores me for it, which is all that anyone could ever ask for. He thinks my dorky sense of humor is cute, that I’m beautiful even with my scars & actually CARES about me, how I’m feeling, & is the most sincere listener & the most comforting/loving/understanding person I have ever met. He’s helped me so much more than he could ever know. He soothed my insecurities & just made me okay, he helped secure me in who I was, when I was lost & bouncing around in the fear of not being “good enough.” Though, I will always believe that I’m not good enough for someone like him. He deserves anything & everything he could ever want, the best of anything, for he gives HIS best to everyone. He is that person who is there to make you smile & turn around your most awful days. He is that person who goes out of his way to help anybody, not for the sake of being a good person, but because he actually wants to, for he is the epitome of good-natured, thoughtful & loving human beings. I can pretty much guarantee that you will never encounter someone as sweet… & as humble. He doesn’t realize how amazing he really is. He will never admit it, never agree with you, when it comes to him being some sort of angelic sweetheart. I think it’s a cover up ha